Sir is Pissed!!

Well, I haven't been a very good slave lately as this always happens when I meet someone. Someone that is near me and takes me out on dates. Someone who is very sweet and nice to me that I get caught up in the moment. I do feel really bad for Sir's part. He isn't forgotten so I hope he doesn't think that. I do need to start remembering to ask permission for such things as I have forgotten. I haven't been too good at all. I deserve probably a lot of punishments right now. I just don't know how to handle an outside dating/relationship scene to a slave scene. I don't know how to juggle them and I see people doing it all the time. What is the trick? What's the secret? Because I am having such a hard time juggling them both.

I am very sorry Sir for neglecting our contract. I know you have the right to push me completely out of your life and to tear the contract up but I am asking for another chance as to I hope you won't give up on me and us. I will remember to ask permission to the best that I can.

I am so sorry Sir.

Cum Slut

My recording Sir made me

Hello All,

I am about to head to bed but I just wanted to say that I am so very excited to start listening to my very first hypnosis recording. I will start it tomorrow!! :)

Cum Slut

Surgery, LDR, Rules

I need advice and suggestions...

Sir and I are in a LDR due to my schooling and career. I am just wondering if anyone else is in this same situation as Sir and I are. Sir and I chat online, text and we use web cam. I am the reason why we haven't called eachother on the phone yet because I am way too nervous. I have never actually talked in a S/M way on the phone before and I just can't seem to get comfortable with the idea of it. Any ideas? Sir has came up with assignments along with a calendar of my duties as a slave and they get directly sent to my blackberry. Tonight I am working on my 200 lines that say "This worthless cunt will follow ALL the rules. This dumb bitch will NOT dissapoint her master.".

I am having a surgery in a couple months for a breast reduction. Am I nervous? Yes. Do I want to be laid up for 2-3 weeks? No. Do I want reading and writing assignments during my time off from Sir? Yes of course! Have any of you had this surgery done before too? I don't have a choice. My doctor has recommended it for me due to health reasons. The picture above is my tits now and I will have to post a new picture of my new tits when they are done and healed!

I think with Sir and I everything is going great. He still has the check in times for me so I do check in and I was forgetting an awful lot these past few weeks which I have no excuse for. I fully say that it was my fault and that I am worthless since I forgot but now I am really starting to show that I do care for Sir and I do love him with all of my heart. Starting on Monday at my 8:00 PM Check In times is when I have to call Sir to check in and tell him my status. Sir, What kind of Status would you like? I get SO nervous about calling so he is making a hypnosis tape that I can start listening to so he can calm my nerves and fears about talking on the phone.

Time for a body inspection... :)

Sexuality, Rules, and Assignments

It's been awhile since my last post and I believe Sir has posted more than me in the last eight days. It has been crazy and very hectic at work with everyone wanting my project to be done right now and I have news for them that it just won't be done for another year or so. I am THAT busy and it just never lets up.

I want to reveal something to all of you that I haven't just yet until now. I am bisexual. I love cock and pussy! I have been in one threesome with a couple who we will call David and Julie and I was with another woman twice that we will call Jessica for their own privacy reasons. Jessica is out of the picture because she is fully committed to her boyfriend Jake and has moved out of state. David and Julie turned very weird on me after our hott mind blowing threesome so I quit contacting them as they finally gave up on me too. I don't have the courage to come out to my friends or family that I am bi. I am so afraid that I will be disowned from all of them since they are all very set in their ways. I just need to get laid. That is what I need. It has been THREE months of NOTHING and I am going crazy. It has been SIX months of no women to taste, lick, touch or kiss and guess what?!? I AM GOING INSANE!! I have seen a friend of mine use Craigs List and I am so half tempted to start looking on there and perhaps make a listing of my own. I need to taste a pussy and I need mine ate out as well so badly! This is all I can think about, dream about and wish for it to happen.

Lastly, Sir and I are completely M/S. I am his slave and he has new rules for his cunt if you would like to read below. I had my first body inspection today in a long time and he was very impressed with my weight loss so that has put me in a GREAT mood!

He also has listed assignments for me to handwrite and send them off in US postal mail.

Here they are:

1. 200 lines in a red pen saying "This worthless cunt should follow ALL rules. This dumb bitch will NOT misbehave" or something like that.
2. 400 word essay on why you should be following the rules more closely than you are. What you are doing wrong and why it should change.
3. Finish and mail a letter to someone important
4. 287 word essay on why and how I am a worthless whoring cunt. Due wednesday the 12th
5. Write a story about what you imagine me doing to you the first time we actually meet. Due Tuesday the 18th.

Any other assignment ideas for this whoring cunt??

Off to start one of the assignments. Sir's orders and I LOVE them!

Good Evening

Well I was just about to go to bed but I thought I should make an entry first. I have been a good whore lately and bought some new toys so I have been trying them out and I love them. The vibrator feels so good on my clit and it makes me want to cum so badly but I know I am not allowed. I am not allowed to cum until November. It sounds so crazy but that was my idea too so it wasn't all of Sir's idea. :) He just agreed to it!

Tomorrow is back to the work week and I am already looking forward to the weekend. Work has been stressful lately so my nerves have been sky rocketing! I can't really go into detail about my job here so I will just say that it is very stressful.

I am going to go strip my clothes off and get into bed to be ready to submit to Sir tonight!

I love being a whore.