Surgery, LDR, Rules

I need advice and suggestions...

Sir and I are in a LDR due to my schooling and career. I am just wondering if anyone else is in this same situation as Sir and I are. Sir and I chat online, text and we use web cam. I am the reason why we haven't called eachother on the phone yet because I am way too nervous. I have never actually talked in a S/M way on the phone before and I just can't seem to get comfortable with the idea of it. Any ideas? Sir has came up with assignments along with a calendar of my duties as a slave and they get directly sent to my blackberry. Tonight I am working on my 200 lines that say "This worthless cunt will follow ALL the rules. This dumb bitch will NOT dissapoint her master.".

I am having a surgery in a couple months for a breast reduction. Am I nervous? Yes. Do I want to be laid up for 2-3 weeks? No. Do I want reading and writing assignments during my time off from Sir? Yes of course! Have any of you had this surgery done before too? I don't have a choice. My doctor has recommended it for me due to health reasons. The picture above is my tits now and I will have to post a new picture of my new tits when they are done and healed!

I think with Sir and I everything is going great. He still has the check in times for me so I do check in and I was forgetting an awful lot these past few weeks which I have no excuse for. I fully say that it was my fault and that I am worthless since I forgot but now I am really starting to show that I do care for Sir and I do love him with all of my heart. Starting on Monday at my 8:00 PM Check In times is when I have to call Sir to check in and tell him my status. Sir, What kind of Status would you like? I get SO nervous about calling so he is making a hypnosis tape that I can start listening to so he can calm my nerves and fears about talking on the phone.

Time for a body inspection... :)

Sexuality, Rules, and Assignments

It's been awhile since my last post and I believe Sir has posted more than me in the last eight days. It has been crazy and very hectic at work with everyone wanting my project to be done right now and I have news for them that it just won't be done for another year or so. I am THAT busy and it just never lets up.

I want to reveal something to all of you that I haven't just yet until now. I am bisexual. I love cock and pussy! I have been in one threesome with a couple who we will call David and Julie and I was with another woman twice that we will call Jessica for their own privacy reasons. Jessica is out of the picture because she is fully committed to her boyfriend Jake and has moved out of state. David and Julie turned very weird on me after our hott mind blowing threesome so I quit contacting them as they finally gave up on me too. I don't have the courage to come out to my friends or family that I am bi. I am so afraid that I will be disowned from all of them since they are all very set in their ways. I just need to get laid. That is what I need. It has been THREE months of NOTHING and I am going crazy. It has been SIX months of no women to taste, lick, touch or kiss and guess what?!? I AM GOING INSANE!! I have seen a friend of mine use Craigs List and I am so half tempted to start looking on there and perhaps make a listing of my own. I need to taste a pussy and I need mine ate out as well so badly! This is all I can think about, dream about and wish for it to happen.

Lastly, Sir and I are completely M/S. I am his slave and he has new rules for his cunt if you would like to read below. I had my first body inspection today in a long time and he was very impressed with my weight loss so that has put me in a GREAT mood!

He also has listed assignments for me to handwrite and send them off in US postal mail.

Here they are:

1. 200 lines in a red pen saying "This worthless cunt should follow ALL rules. This dumb bitch will NOT misbehave" or something like that.
2. 400 word essay on why you should be following the rules more closely than you are. What you are doing wrong and why it should change.
3. Finish and mail a letter to someone important
4. 287 word essay on why and how I am a worthless whoring cunt. Due wednesday the 12th
5. Write a story about what you imagine me doing to you the first time we actually meet. Due Tuesday the 18th.

Any other assignment ideas for this whoring cunt??

Off to start one of the assignments. Sir's orders and I LOVE them!

First Entry of the New Blog!

Well it's my first post and I am very excited to see how many people start to read my entries! Sir and I are doing great! He has made a rule that I am not allowed to cum until September 4th. I really hope I can make it that long! He almost let me cum tonight but I told him if he really wants me to wait then I will wait because I love him very much. He seemed very pleased! Oh and yesterday morning I had my clamps on my nipples for 22 minutes! I was very shocked and he was very pleased as well. I don't understand how that changed because usually I can only go for 5 minutes!

Well, I am going to go read like Sir demanded. I love being demanded!

Cum Slut

Rules for Cum Slut

1. 
   My primary job is to protect and care for Grand Pa De Sade’s slutty property, (me).
   
2. I am always to remember that Grand Pa De Sade is in control of my life, that I am his complete whore and slave, and he is my Master.
   
3. I shall always refer to Grand Pa De Sade as Sir or Master.
   
4. I like control and humiliation and have accepted Grand Pa De Sade as my Master knowing he will fulfill those ends for me.
   
5. I am to be on web cam whenever possible when at home alone, even if I don’t think Sir is watching.
   
6. I am not to be on any furniture without permission except when rule 7 is true. As long as company or family is there, or I can be seen and it would raise questions, then I may use the furniture, a privledge I do not deserve.
   
7. Anytime I am at home, and don’t have company or family, and when I can’t be seen, I am to sleep on floor where pets, animals, and vermin sleep, unless otherwise granted permission to sleep on the bed.
   
8. My computer chair is an exception to rules 6 & 7. I may sit on it so I can type and see the monitor.
   
9. Anytime I am at home, and don’t have company or family, and when I can’t be seen, If Sir is not available to give permission, then I may assume I have permission to cover myself with a blanket, as well as sleeping on the bed if it is cold. If Grand Pa De Sade is available, then I must ask him for permission to sleep with either towel or blanket and on bed. If I don't have permission, and it's not too cold, then without permission I should assume I may NOT sleep with towell or blanket. Normally where I am to sleep will be scheduled on my calendar.
   
10. I am to have the butt plug in my filthy butt when told to do so by Sir.
    
11. Anytime I am at home, I am to crawl like any other snake, (unless I have company or family there (or can be seen). This rule is overridden by a genuine need to stand, such as to reach an upper shelf, to get dressed, keep the windows closed, clean, to go somewhere, etc.
12. At such times I may act like a normal member of society instead of the lowly fuck hole that I am. If I have to stand for a temporary reason, like reaching something on an upper shelf, I must return to crawling when the task is done.
    
13. Anytime I am at home, I am to eat from a plate or bowl on the floor (without using my hands), unless I have company or family there (or can be seen). Just before I eat or drink on the floor, I will say to myself, “I am a pig and deserve to eat and drink this way”. then snort and say “Oink, oink”.
    
14. Anytime I am at home, I am to be naked as long as I don’t have company or family and when I can’t be seen.
    
15. Anytime I am at home, and don’t have company or family, and when I can’t be seen, if I need to urinate or change a tampon, I will do it in a bucket, (and if the web-cam is on the laptop, on camera for my Master only).
    
16. Anytime I am at home, and don’t have company or family, and when I can’t be seen, if I need to deficate, it will be done in the bathroom, (and if the web-cam is on the laptop, on camera for my Master only).
    
17. Anytime I am at home, and don’t have company or family, and when I can’t be seen, I am to keep a dildo inserted. (That dildo is to be inserted and/or removed, if the web-cam is on the laptop, on camera for my Master only). Times to have the dildo in, and the settings, will be scheduled on my calendar.
    
18. Master has the complete right to control my sexuality, and to approve or disapprove any sexual partners or activities for his whore.
    
19. When possible, and if my partner is willing, (and it is solely my decision as to if I ask them or not), sexual activity will be on webcam for my Master, as I am his filthy whore.
    
20. Anytime I am at home, and don’t have company or family, and when I can’t be seen, Master has the right to himiliate me in any manner he chooses, as long as there is not any permenent injury. For all rules, and activities, excluded and limited activities are those including children.
21. Anytime I am at home sleeping, and don’t have company or family, and when I can’t be seen, (and if the web-cam is on the laptop), I will have my cam on so Master may watch me sleep.
    
22. Each day I am to stand in front of of a mirror, (full length if possible), and while looking at myself, say “I have a gorguos body. I love myself.” Then I am to turn around, grab my ankles, and say “what an asshole!”. Then get on my hands and knees and wiggle my butt, snort, and say “Oink, Oink”.
    
23. Whenever I masturbate, (and I may only masturbate only when permitted or ordered), I will say “I am a filthy fucking whore”.
    
24. If I am given permission or orders to have sex with a person or persons, just before doing so I will say to myself (NOT OUT LOUD) ”I am a worthless slut and whore, and it is my duty to please Master in this way”.
    
25. Master will assign me projects from time to time. These projects may be research, activities, or anything else Master choses. Such projects will be scheduled, (start and end dates) on my calendar.
    
26. Master has the right to inspect my body fully, in any way he chooses at any time I am alone and unobserved by others.
    
27. The inspections mentioned above shall be conducted at least twice a day as determined by Master. Every morning when I get up, and every night before bed, I will submit to a full body inspection. If Master is not available, the inspection may be assumed to have been completed. Inspection will consist of the following: A visual inspection of any part of my body that Master wishes to inspect. It will include my turning to show all sides of my body, holding each position un till told to turn again. Bending over and spreding my ass cheeks for inspection while saying "This is your filthy slut's asshole". Displaying each nipple, then displaying each arm pit (untill told to go to the next thing), and then displaying my neck. Lastly spreading my labia to display my filthy cunt for inspection, while saying "This is my whoring cunt".
    
28. If I am having sex on camera for Master, he may choose to have my partner display my body in any way he choses.